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U is for update. And by that I mean that a novel update. Lately I have been working a lot on my novel, and here is a little piece of it. If you have any suggestions, feedback or ideas please just put it in a comment. I hope you enjoy!!!

I can’t believe it. The guidance councillor has signed me up for group. GROUP! Everyone knows that only the really messed up people are signed up for group. She says that it will help me because I can “connect” with other people who have some troublesome things going on in their life. Seriously, I can’t even walk around the halls without everyone going all quiet and whispering stuff like “That’s the girl who’s dad died! You know the one I was telling you about?” As if I didn’t have enough things that could ruin my reputation to worry about. Anyway the first session is tonight in room 347. I think about calling and asking my mom if I can stay, but than I realize that she doesn’t care. I could stay out all night and when I came in, she would look at me with those eyes. The eyes that never notice, but instead look right through me. I slowly walk back in the direction of class, but really just wandering aimlessly. Before I know it I am running. Running down the halls, my old gray sneakers squeaking on the sterol white ground. I pass so many plain blue lockers, they all blend together. I break through the first exit I see, a rusty metal door and run straight in to Derek Mallow.

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Caption of the football team, President of student council, and about 58 girlfriends just this year, he’s that guy that has it all, and the teachers just love him. As I trip on his foot and go flying he catches me by my waist, with such strength it surprises me. He has bright sparkling blue eyes that make me want to stare at him forever. He gently lowers me down, and winks, saying something sweet but at the same time funny, but I’m not listening. All I can think is how he is touching me, his arms still around my waist with such ease. It’s to hot, and my face is flushing that embarrassing shade of deep red. He’s looking at me, waiting for my response, but I don’t even know what he said in the first place. I turn away from his gaze, and rip free, sprinting of around the corner, past a huge dumpster where there are three kids with bottles of beer in their hands, drunk. Suddenly, I think of my mother, and how she is probably drinking her problems away right now, not even considering what me and Lily are going through. Thinking of her, I run even faster, my arms pumping at my sides. I fly passed the baseball diamond, and onto a soccer field. In the very middle of it, I collapse, lying down on my back, staring up at the bright blue sky. The grass hasn’t been cut in a while, and is long and full of dandelions. Here, right here outside, with not one person in sight, I feel so connected. I’m not really sure what with, but I feel so clean, new, in touch with myself. I sit there for a long time, watching the clouds drift across the sky. As I think about it, it would be a pretty nice life up there in the sky, just floating around, not knowing where exactly you’re going, but knowing that in the end you will somehow get there. I think about my Dad, and what he would think of my mother right now, of all of us. I can almost picture what he would say right now. Getting over a painful experience is like crossing the monkey bars; you have to let go at some point in order to move on. I remember that he told me his mother always said that when Grandpa died. I wait there in happy thoughts and memories of my Dad until I’m pretty sure that it is the end of the day. I slowly sit up and stretch, watching people run out of school, and race of in cars. I wish that when school finished each day, I had somewhere to be, somewhere I was wanted, not like now, where everyone stares at me wherever I go. And home is definitely not an option. The only thing there is my mother with her Jack Daniels or Jim Beam in tow. I don’t want to see Lily, asking, “Where’s Mommy Sophie? Where is she???” I don’t want to see the bare walls where my father’s pictures should be.

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Life Lesson: Take some time to yourself. Sure, Sophie’s case that means skipping school and lying in the middle of a soccer field, but it doesn’t need to be like that. You can simply go to a park, go for a walk, or just have some fun. Everyone needs some fresh air and fun every once and a while.

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HAVE A GREAT DAY GEORGIA!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEORGIA!!!!!

WE LOVE YOU!!!!!

JENNY, ROWENA, EMMA, EMILIE, AND ALEDA!!!!!!!!!!

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E is for Everglades.

The boat speeds through the narrow passage, gently bouncing up and down on the smooth, glittering surface of the water. It navigates the narrow, maze-like paths with ease. Then we pick up even more speed. The wind is so strong that my eyes are watering and my hair flies out behind me. Soon we start to bounce up and down on the surface roughly, and the boat slows down. Just then, we turn into a big pond. The boat slows to a stop. I don't understand why we have stopped, but when I stand up, I see why. I definitely see why. In front of the boat is a 9 foot alligator.

During the March Break, I went to Florida with one of my best friends, Madi. While we were there, we went swimming, tanning, shopping, and jogging. On one afternoon, Madi came downstairs asking if we have ever been on airboat ride through the Everglades. I was a little doubtful, but because I had never been, we decided to check it out. At the time, I didn't know that it would be one of the most fun things I have done in my whole life. The next morning we set off.

As soon as we got in our boat, we headed off to a warm, quiet pond, where we floated around for a few minutes, chatting with the boat driver. All of a sudden, he stopped talking, and pointed to something in the water. When we peered down, we saw a sort of grey and tan animal, and lots of bubbles. Apparently the animal had been a manatee! I was very lucky to see one this time of year, because they usually aren't around in that area in March. Then we set off to these maze like paths, that were small and narrow. It was really fun though, because we could go really fast down those paths because there weren't many animals there. The path would open up into a little pond every once in a while, and we would look around to see if we could find any alligators, or other creatures. Flying around and above those little ponds were about a thousand pelicans. As we exited the first path, one landed right on the boat. It was practically sitting on me and Madi!!! Eventually it got bored and flew off (but not before a photo shoot of course!).

After some floating around, and speeding through the little paths for a while, we came into a big pond. The boat suddenly came to a fast stop. When we looked around to figure out why, there was a huge ALLIGATOR!!! It was 9 feet long! It was so scary!!! On our trip, we saw one more alligator that was only 7 feet long, but still really cool.

Overall, without this experience, the whole vacation would have been different. By taking the risk, we gained not only a lot of fun, but many memories. I hope that one day, you might get to go on an airboat ride through the everglades of Florida!

Life Lesson: Take risks. Try something new. You might just have the best time of your life.

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N is for nightmares. We all have them. Especially the main character in the novel I am writing. We dream as we sleep, and some of our dreams become nightmares and can terrify us even as we sleep. Sophie has a lot of dreams and nightmares about her father, now that he is in Afghanistan, fighting as a soldier. She misses him a lot and worries about his safety. Here is one of the nightmares she has about her father the night he ends up being killed.

Bang, Bang, Bang! I’m in a small, crowded room. But when I look down at my hands, they are not mine. I know them so well. They are dirtier and more wrinkled than the last time I saw them, but definitely his. My heart leaps. They are my father’s hands.

I look around. At the front of the room, there is a long, scratched, wooden table. People are crowded around the table, all trying to see what is on the surface. They all look up in surprise when they hear the banging. Then, they all leap into action at the exact same moment. One person jumps, and runs out the other way, out a door that I can’t see. The main door bursts open, and three soldiers come in. I can see more soldiers behind them. Shots ring through the air.

There are people everywhere, crying out in pain, falling to the ground. Someone walks into the room. He is tall, with a moustache. He yells, “WE ARE UNDER ATTACK, EVACUATE!” As soon as the words are out of his mouth, people are pushing and shoving, running towards the exit. More shots are fired, and there are more screams. There is blood everywhere. I run and run towards the exit, but no matter how fast I’m running, it never come closer. People pour out of side tunnels, and race past me. More shots ring out. The person behind me crumples to the ground. I recognize him. He is the man who told us to evacuate. I somehow know that he is in charge. I spin around; hoist the man over my shoulder, and continued running. After a while, my calves are burning, and I need to stop. The man weighs a lot, and I’m tiring quickly. Just as I decide to give up, the door appears in front of me. I leap through the door. I place the man in someone’s arms, telling them to take him to the hospital. They look at me funny, but then complete the task I give them. I sink up against the wall. Let them kill me, I think.

My limbs burn, I’m starving, I haven’t slept in days. I have lice, and many bug bites. I miss my family so much, it hurts. I want to go home, to be away from here. But I have a duty. No matter how bad I feel, no matter how much I don’t want to be here, I need to go and do my job: to stand up and protect people who can’t protect themselves. And that is exactly what I’m going to do. I stand up, ignoring the sharp, shooting pain in my head, and slowly make my way down the cramped, closed tunnels. I find my way into a tiny room. It is dimly lit. There are two soldiers. One is standing by the door. One is loading a shotgun. Something is wrong. I start towards the door, but before I can reach it, the soldier standing there slams it shut. I turn around, trying to make my voice not shake and say, “What do you want?” He looks me straight in the eye and says in a surprisingly calm and clear voice, “Goodbye John. I’m sorry.” Then a shot rings out, and I’m falling.

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What do you think about Sophie's nightmare? If you have any suggestions, please post them in a comment.

Life Lesson: Nightmares can be very powerful and scary, but sometimes our nightmares are trying to tell us something. Listen.

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P is for parents. Parents nag. Nagging, nagging, and more nagging. Sure, that's what most teenagers think of their parents, but is there more? Parents are there for you when you need them. They watch over you, and make sure you stay safe. They love you no matter what you do.

Parents nag. But have you ever wondered why parents nag so much? Think about it. Parents just want you to be the best you that you can be. Most parents feel that this is their mission in life: to give you the best childhood ever. By nagging you, your parents could actually be trying to help you. (I know, it doesn't really feel like it, does it?) Just think:

Version 1: (nagging) It is 6 in the morning, and time to wake up for school. You decide to put your alarm on snooze and catch a few more winks. But then, just as you're getting to that nice, calm, and relaxing doze, your mom or dad come into the room, muttering under their breath about how you are going to be late if you don't get out of bed this very minute. After a whole lot of nagging, you stumble out of bed, and get ready for school. On your way downstairs, you remember that you have a test today. Whatever, you think, no one else will remember. But of course, your mom or dad is at the bottom of the stairs, waiting for you. "You never mentioned last night that you have a test today!" they exclaim. "If you start to study now, you might have enough time." You start to argue, but it's no use. They hand you the book and tell you that you need to study now, and that nothing is going to change that. You glare at them, but take the book, and sit down to study. After half an hour, and some hard studying, you're feeling a lot better about the test. Your parents test you on the material to build your confidence, and then say that you'll need to eat something, then run and catch the bus. You tell them that you don't have time to eat, because the bus will be here any second. They shove a piece of toast into your one hand and an apple into the other, and send you out the door. When you get to school, you ace your test, and have a great day.

Version 2: (no nagging) It is 6 in the morning, and time to wake up for school, but you sleep on. You forgot to turn on your alarm the night before, and no one reminded you to. At 7, you wake up, take one look at the clock, and dash out of bed. You get ready in world record timing. As you sprint downstairs, you remember you have a test today, but quickly dismiss the thought. Who cares? It's not like it counts for anything. You make a quick decision to skip eating, and attempt to catch the bus. As you make a mad dash towards the road, you can see your bus pulling in. You run faster than you have ever run before, and just make it. As you sit there, staring out the window, you realize that you didn't pack yourself a lunch. Your stomach growls with the thought of food, but it's going to be a while before you have some. When you get off the bus, you have a pounding headache from being so hungry. By the time you get to the class that your test is in, your head pounds every time you move. When you are handed the test, you try, but you just don't understand. You fail the test, and have the worst day of your life.

As you can see in the examples above, your parents' nagging could actually be for your own good. A good nagger is like a good coach!

Life Lesson: Parents have good hearts. They want you to succeed. They want to help you be your best you. They love you like no one else can. Be grateful.

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S is for summer!

I wake up at 10:30, walk lazily downstairs and make myself breakfast. Then, I have some orange juice, and head out for a bike ride. When I get back, at 1:30, I have a nice cool shower and head out to my friend’s house for a sleepover. We go swimming, watch a movie, and then have some dinner and go to bed. When we wake up, we head out to the beach to play some beach volleyball and relax in the sun. On the way back, we grab some ice cream. I get two scoops of my favourite, strawberry banana. This is heaven. This is summer.

What do you think when you think of summer? Well I think: Free. Nothing I have to do, nothing that is due the next day. This is what summer is like.

In the summer, all kinds of opportunities are just lying around, waiting to be used. You can go to camp when you want to meet new people and have a blast, have a sleepover marathon when you want some company, or go for a swim whenever it gets too hot. You can go and lie in the sun if you’re having a lazy day. You can go for a bike ride when you’re bored, have a nap when you’re tired. There are no boring lectures, no adults telling you to tuck in your shirt, or to sit up straighter.

My favourite part about summer is having so much free time to do whatever I feel like. During the school year, there is never a second I have to myself. I feel like I’m constantly at school, or doing homework. But in the summer, I have all day to do whatever I want, whether it’s a lazy day or an athletic day. It’s up to me to decide what to do with my time.

Sure, free time is great, but sometimes when I have so much free time, I almost want to have something to do. Like if it's the middle of summer, and I'm sitting around bored, sometimes I'll pick up a book, try out a math problem, write a poem or do a Sudoku puzzle. It almost seems like when I'm in school, I want it to be summer, and to have tons of free time. And when it is summer, and I'm bored, I want to have something to do, like I do when I'm in school. I guess what they say is right! People are never happy with what they have.

Life Lesson: Don’t waste one second of summer. Enjoy it to its fullest. Be happy with what you have, not what you want.

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R is for Rowena. Rowena is one of my best friends in the entire world. I have known her since I was four years old. Because we ride the bus together every day, we get to spend quite a lot of time together and we really know each other well. She is always there when I want to talk, and she never lets me down. Sure she's pretty quiet, but when Rowena does talk, it's either HILARIOUS, or definitely worth listening to. She can make me laugh when I'm close to tears, and she can give me great advice when I'm confused.

Rowena loves horses just as much as I do. Sometimes we end up seeing each other at competitions. Rowena even has a barn right at her house (which to me seems like heaven), so she spends a lot of time with horses, and knows A LOT about them. She is a great person to talk to when you have questions about horses or when you want to talk to someone who will understand what you are dealing with. She has a pretty crazy horse named Max, who she loves to death. Honestly, I have no idea how she stays on Max! He is very energetic and faster than the wind! Max is a bay, which means he is brown, with a black mane and tail. He has a white star, right on the middle of his forehead. He is so cute! (Not as cute as Mister T, but a close second!) Max and Rowena are a pretty funny pair. She can be quiet, responsible and mature, while he can be cheeky, spunky and spirited. Perhaps what they say is true: opposites do attract!

Rowena and I aren't opposites though. We have a lot in common (not just horses). We share a lot of the same interests, ideas and opinions. We can work well together because we have similar styles. Rowena and I both find the same things funny and when we start to laugh~warning~it can be dangerous! Remembering to breath can be a challenge. I really enjoy the time I spend with Rowena.

Life Lesson: Good friends help you navigate the long journey of life. Good friends are always there for you. Good friends never let you down. Have a good friend. Be a good friend.

As Walter Winchell once said, "A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."